I‘ve got some good news and some bad news. Well, maybe not bad news, but you’ll see.
A few days ago I had tapped into something inside that I’ve been seeking for, probably, literally decades. I have found a sense of fulfillment and completion — even joy — that I touched on in my early ’20s but had been unable to realize … until now.
It’s a paradigm shift, and a huge one.
The flip side of this is that, having found this sense of profound fulfillment, my creative impulses — in the ways that I am used to expressing them — have nearly completely dried up.
As could be expected, this took me completely by surprise.
(This must mean, among other things, I was using my creativity in a vain attempt to find this sense of inner completion.)
(God, I hate it when that happens.)
So, now, I am at a bit of a loss. I am in a position where I am going to have to listen inside for what might be a long while to process through this big change and see what direction I need to go when I’ve worked through it.
For the time being, then, The Meaning of Existence (and all that) as well as High Oddness will be going on hiatus, until I have found what purpose my internet presence might serve in my life.
This is a bit embarrassing, and especially so with High Oddness in that I launched it only a couple of weeks ago. But my bottom line is that this is something I need to do.
Ladies and gentlemen, till we meet again.
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I totally hear you, Daniel. Don’t be embarrassed… trying to force creativity is like trying to herd cats (oh, I’m so darn original.)
I wish you well on your exploration.
Lyman –
Thanks for that. It’s odd being the cat that I’m trying to herd. (I feel the need to say something about chasing my own tail, but I think it would degenerate into a Groucho Marx joke. Or an Eddy Murphy one.)
– Daniel
Wow. There really is someone else on Planet Earth as strange as I, and so idiosyncratically similarly strange. Wow. Are we on Fringe? Well, except for in THIS version of the universe I am a female, and to my great disappointment, not nearly as organized as the analytical, less, ADD (Advanced Dimensionally Dynamic) version who put together this site, and possesses knowledge on how to connect self to multiple social streaming kinds of things. I too, as of recently, am I writer, or so I am told. Have begun the process of writing to be met almost immediately by writers block. How does one place all the things they have been contemplating (which seem brilliant from the inside) somehow on a page that the reader can understand? In my spare time which there is little, and only because of a high fever which served to knock me in bed, have I been able to write anything. The “about me” section. Whoa vulnerability, here we come! So, I will offer up a large thank you for what I read when I first came to this site, about how when becoming a coach/consultant, speak of what you know vs. spend days and days that turn into months “researching” to find that many have said things so similar. But I am me, and there is only one of me (?) and my viewpoint will be an embodiment of that. Very timely and synchronous. I can’t believe that is even a word – no pesky red line under the attempt. Thank you for your generous sharing of ideas. Have fun inside. It is the place where all truth resides. I can share more about how I learned to go there if your interested. Be well!
Barbara –
Wow! Now that’s an introduction.
“Advanced Dimensionally Dynamic” — first time I’ve heard that one. I tend to think I suffer more from the traditional definition of ADD, in that I find myself jumping from subject to subject (see my most recent post here).
Sounds like you need a blog, Barbara. (Lots of options out there, and I could point you at folks that can set you up if you want a “free standing” one of your own like this, instead of through one of the services such as Blogger or WordPress.com.)
Making the time to write is a big piece of it. I heard of a doctor that would write on his typewriter (long before word processors) on stolen minutes between patient appointments. Deepak Chopra has written at least two books on his BlackBerry. The technology is there, it comes down to managing the time — something I’m still wrestling with, honestly.
Thanks for the comment.
– Daniel
Thanks Daniel,
It really does come down to time management. And I know the “first things first” rule, which I do not follow enough – start with meditation, first thing. The Tao says, “What want’s to get done will get done.” Boy, being knocked on you rump with flu causes one to consider all manner of things, a little fever helps with paradigm shifts. I have a feeling that if I am able to practice that one discipline, things will fall into place as should be. The bigger question, “Why would I or anyone resist this simplicity?” That is just a whole nuther ball of wax! I have a “website designer” who is putting the whole thing together, so I am definitely going to do the blog thing. I can see how it will be useful and fun. Yes, your high level of creativity and ability to do many things would point to ADD -which I have come to honor as a gift, hence the rename! Thanks for reply